God Told Me Someone Was Pregnant
During a recent GBS bible study on Joshua chapter 5, I learned how God used praise and worship to break down the mighty walls of Jericho and give the promised land to the Israelites. For so long the Israelites wandered in the desert because they just didn’t quite understand who God was. For if they knew they wouldn’t have been disobedient to his commandments. They whined and complained the land was impossible to conquer because they were staring at the distractions around them and not the great and powerful God who stood before them.
A while back, I was singing my heart out during praise and worship because our church was making preparation to enter into 42 days of prayer for revival. As I immersed myself into the goodness of God, dancing and shouting out to him, the Holy Spirit put a nameless, pregnant, and single girl from our church on my heart to pray for. I had this feeling she was there with me at church, keeping this secret to herself and unsure whether she was going to be able to keep the baby. But I also sensed that God wanted her to know he would take care of her and the baby should she choose to keep it. I really felt God’s love and genuine concern for her well being and how he wanted to make things better for her. I got the impression she was confused and that she was experiencing tremendous grief, and how God did not want the burden of this situation to devastate her. The words I got from God for her were “it’s not as bad as you think” because he was going to take care of both her and the baby should she trust him.
I told my friends Bonnie and Dan how I wanted prayer to find her and share all these things the Holy Spirit was revealing to me. But Dan was wise enough to redirect my focus on praying for her well being and trusting God to use others to minister and care for her. Perhaps my only role was simply to pray. I need to be obedient and not cross boundaries by taking matters into my own hands. I surrendered the situation to God and gave up on finding her.
A couple weeks later my boyfriend told me about a single girl who recently went public with her pregnancy. I immediately was convicted by the spirit this was the girl God told me to pray for. After praying and seeking the advice of friends I felt it was necessary to share this story with her. She needed to know God’s side of the story, which is his undying love for her. How God loves her so much he put her on a stranger’s heart to be prayed for. She needed to know that as God was revealing the worries and guilt on her heart for me to pray for, he was also showing me the things on his heart: his perfect love that was free of guilt or shame.
So I emailed her and within a few hours she responded and shared how she was in awe of God’s amazing grace and love. She said she felt guilt and shame, and it seemed like those things were preventing her from experiencing the intimacy of God’s love. However, that barrier has been removed and she finally has a peace about this situation so that she can move pass the grief she’s been experiencing.
Her story is so important to me because of how important she is to God. Her feelings of guilt and shame prevented her from truly knowing what was in God’s heart so those feelings pushed her away from him. God knew that happened and he never left her nor did he stop loving her. He chased her down and sent a messenger so that she would come back to him.
Her story is also important for my church because we were once known as a “church without walls” (CWOW) but we’re all sinners so things happen and like this girl, we felt separated from God’s love. A wall went up between us and God and each other. As God was actively breaking down the walls that prevented this girl from receiving his love, I sensed he was also breaking down the walls of our church so that we would enter into all the good things he had planned and purposed for us (Jeremaiah 29:11). God fights for us because he longs to love us (Isaiah 30:18). As the power of praise and worship broke down the walls of Jericho, I ask you to join our church in prayer, praise and worship that will be held at the end of this month to help break down the walls of our church.
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